I can’t pretend what I am not. Though there are times I need to control myself to be blunt and mean to others, not for the reason that it was the right thing to do, but because I can’t stand to see people who would hate me and curse me for the rest of my life. Of course protecting yourself is a humane method of deliberating peace to others as well. I know you would agree with my perception.
The truth is, the true me is a real bastard. It was just a half sleeping trait inside of me that I have been fighting for, avoiding exploding the limit of my standards and capacity to control myself. I am a real bastard that has the ability to hurt anyone if I really wanted to. But I was raised not to be like that, and then I need to cover it with a mask to give you shield from my nastiness.
The least personal quality I have to others is having the RECIPROCATE CHARACTER. I don’t know if it’s the right term, I just name it for myself. As we all know, reciprocity is responding to a positive action with another positive action or negative action with negative actions. That is me.
I don’t have much unconditional love to others. I usually give what I receive. Show what I have seen. Let you feel what I have felt. If you love me, I would love you. If you hurt me then anticipate my revenge, in any forms, in any activities and in any possible way. See, I am really a very complicated person.
I hate myself for this. But I am no longer a willing victim in this cruel world.
Love you or hate you. My answer depends on you.
#365 days of writing prompts# what is your least favorite personal quality in others?