I don’t feel like celebrating my birthday with party and drinks. I just like to pass it silently like I’ll be watching a movie, eat outside and go to sleep by myself. I know I can’t do this, I am totally aware that some people will chase me and gladly wanted to celebrate it with fun.
Really I don’t know. I just feel sad inside. I mean I just want to lay in bed, alone, and stare up at the ceiling and not think at all, not at all.