I saw this writing in my journal saved from year 2008. That was the time when I complained to my family that I felt like dying, and without hesitation, they brought me into the emergency room while my son was shouting at me “mommy, mommy don’t die!”
I have never realized that everything was a little bit serious until I found myself lying in the emergency room, experiencing tightened of muscles, difficulty of breathing and feeling of numbness all over my body. I’m always making fun of this situation, but now it became real and dangerous. After this and that, my doctor informed us of the final diagnosed: I was having an acute anxiety.
At first, I guess he’s crazy. For me, it was just a plain asthma and pneumonia because these are my “habitual sickness”, but I was wrong. They said I am in trouble. I have so much stress that leads me to reduce the quality of my life.
I always thought I was just a plain worrier. I thought it was just me born to be. I’d feel keyed up and unable to relax. At times it would come and go, sometimes it would be constant. It could go on for days. I just couldn’t focus on something. I just couldn’t let something go. I keep most of the important things inside me and I couldn’t trust anyone to know about it.
At times I’d wake up wired in the middle of the night. Sometimes I’d feel a little light-headed. I’d have terrible sleeping problems. My heart would race on a pound and numbness for a second. You can’t hear me worrying too much of something, but my mind does. I can’t seem to get rid of my concerns. I always feel resentful.
Anxiety is worrying about worry. Aside from taking up the prescribe medicine from the doctor, I have gathered all the information how to calm my anxiety. It was hard for me to eliminate this disorder, but I need to calm it down.
I need to help myself.
There is another type of anxiety – acute anxiety – that is so severe that it can cause you to feel like the world around you is collapsing. Acute anxiety often goes by another name: “panic attacks,” and they’re a type of anxiety that is extremely stressful and can cause you to feel like you are losing control.
Though it was eight years ago, still I am in the edge of anxiety. I am still a worrier and have still sleepless nights. But fortunately, I never had again an anxiety attack. I know the fact that I have this ailment, and I tried very hard to control my anxiety so it doesn’t control me. Since I have lived alone, it made me realized too that I need to keep myself sane.
Every time I worry on something or feeling like anxiety is about to attack, I used any of these methods to manage it without drugs; I avoid negativity from others, create effective solutions immediately or seek help, talk about it with friends or write it out, exercise, deep breathing, get an adequate good quality sleep as much as possible, pray and sometime I just ignore it and used my powerful tool “come what may”.
The quality of our life depends on how we deal all these tricky and difficulty life has been presenting to us. Heck, we don’t always have a perfect day, but we have always time to live pleasantly and peacefully. We deserve to be stress free!