I can do anything! You can do it too!
I am grateful that in my jaded life, he came along unexpectedly, accepting me for the things that I have and have-not, for the things that I can give enough and couldn’t give him much. And now, I am putting him in the picture, advocating for something that would see how the relationship budge for long years.
The relationship upholds amazingly by hoping for each other that we could be together someday. The distance serves the fence for all the chances we could do and enjoy, but this distance helped me to believe that maybe, there is really LOVE existing in this imperfect universe. That for millions of billions of people, God hold back one for us.
On the whole, I have to admit that I loved him. It was not a difficult task, it’s the easiest thing to do in this world, just to love. But what seize the hardship is when the relationship experience a stony road along the way. And that is my dread.
But sometimes to dread is to learn, and to learn is to accept the things that cannot be changed.
Never thought of this day would come to just go off and never think about him anymore. Maybe moving on is so easy when you have so many things in hand. I couldn’t sustain the relationship anymore, I couldn’t trust. Things have been changing and I can’t go back from the past.
I am so sorry, but I am not in love with you anymore.
How do you fuel the fires of optimism? In response to the Photo Challenge: Optimistic
Aging is not creepy, but I am not ready for it. Honestly, I am starting to think about it, but I just couldn’t still digest it to my system. Maybe I am quite frightened, not because I will develop wrinkles & gray hair, but maybe aging alone with emotional & psychological roller coaster periods is scary more than I can imagine.
How will I stay young at heart as I get older?
Well, just trying to be happy, hopeful and not expecting anything more than in this life are ways of making my heart at young. I believe our heart will never get old, only our physique, but never ever our soul.
I believe getting older is getting better and wiser.
In response to the Daily Prompt: Young at Heart
When one of my so-called friend said “it’s better not to have kids than to have one without a husband or a father”, I could feel my blood is about to shatter in my veins. What the heck is she talking about? In my defense, I would say “It’s better not to have a cheater husband than to suffer for the rest of my life”.
Another acquaintance told me that I should find someone new because it’s hard to sleep alone every night. That no matter what, I would be always lonely in my bed. My blood wasn’t about to explode that time because there is a half-truth of it. Yes, at first it was hard to endure, there were times you really wanted to have someone beside you if you go to bed or when you wake up the next day. I slept with some of my boyfriends, and to be honest, my life has never changed while I’m still with them, I still couldn’t find peace. Sex is not always matter, it’s not all about what had happened in the bedroom makes you happy, you can’t just live like that.
So if somebody would tell me again about it, I would say, I was able to sleep soundly & deeply now without someone beside me. It’s uncomfortable to have someone near me snoring!
Being a single Parent, I have faced some issues in my life; from supporting my son alone, from the reaction of people, from the notion that I wasn’t good enough, with these & that coming from people who have no idea the whole story of my life. At first it was really appalling and annoying, but somehow I have proven my worth, not everybody can be like me, so what the hell.
After I have moved to my new room, I have gotten enough sleep for 3 nights.
It feels good.
As if I don’t care what’s on the outside.
I wish this would keep happening, even slight without changing.
I feel I am depress.
I want to hide.
I want to stay still.
I want a good change.
I want to be someone else,
who is a fighter
Leaving the people you love behind is worse than you can imagine. You don’t want to say goodbye, to look back or even to wave because it will make your heart fall apart. Though I’m doing this scenario for 8 years, but still, I feel the sadness and pain, still I cry for it.
Goodbye my dear Philippines, till I come back again. I am missing everything & everyone already.
I have decided to make a journal from now on every time I am feeling lonesome. I don’t know what’s matter with me for this past few weeks; it’s not that I am experiencing menopausal period which I firmly believe is still far from that possibility. I just feel like this.
I know I am not depress. I am just lonely, maybe?
Does the start of the “ber” months bring you hope and optimism?
I just have noticed that today is 15th of SeptemBER. Usually everyone recognizes this month because it signifies that Christmas is coming. Maybe this year has been a roller coaster ride for us and it is certainly not lacking in trials and challenges, but do you look forward the last few months of the year more positively now that Christmas is just around the corner?
Some of us the start of the month of September brings a glimmer of hope and faith and there are more of us, OFW just take it as an ordinary day.
Working in a Muslin Country which has no Christmas public holiday is really a gloomy celebration for us. Some are still working on the 25th day. Lucky are those who have an employer who knows how to respect the culture of others.
As for me I have been celebrating the Christmas away from home for 5 years and it will add another this year. I truly miss celebrating it with my family and I almost forgot how it feels to be. This is the real situation. Painful and yet we need to be brave.
I have loved you and still loving you
But my love has limitations when it comes to you.
From the very start I know what I have been doing
I know exactly with you where I am going.
I have set my heart into freedom of loving you
Believing that one day I must let you go.
I grab the possibility of being happy today
And just deal the circumstance of being hurt someday.
You can say I didn’t love you completely
It is because I need to give myself less weary.
Yes I am ready to lose you
I hope you will accept it too.
Don’t make this hard for both of us
Somehow we need to pay the price.
We had the best of times in our life
And now is the time to say goodbye.
The Backyard Poet
Writer of adult inspirational books and the children's book series, "Dr. Peacock and Friends"
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