COLORLESS

Unspoken words.. hidden feelings will lead you to a life of loneliness and isolation. Better call someone at 3:00 am and tell what you have to tell, otherwise, keep it as remembrance of your selfishness, suck it, until you will realize that nothing is worse than regret.

You must not be afraid; you are not colorless. In the eyes of others, for me, from people who truly care for you, maybe you are an empty vessel, but who cares? you are a beautiful one.

Thank you Tsukuru Tazaki for taking me into your vessel. I swam with you across the freezing sea at night. Now, I think I need to grab a beer and rethink again of my life.

Verdict: 10/10

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REAL WORLD

It’s the first thing I always say at our new employee training seminars. I gaze around the room, pick one person, and have him stand up. And this is what I say: I have some good news for you and some bad news. The bad news first. We’re going to have to rip off either your fingernails or your toenails with pliers. I’m sorry, but it’s already decided. It can’t be changed.

I pull out a huge, scary pair of pliers from my briefcase and show them to everybody. Slowly, making sure everybody gets a good look. And then I say: Here’s the good news. You have the freedom to choose which it’s going to be—your fingernails, or your toenails. So, which will it be? You have ten seconds to make up your mind. If you’re unable to decide, we’ll rip off both your fingernails and your toenails.

I start the count.

At about eight seconds most people say, ‘The toes.’ Okay, I say, toenails it is. I’ll use these pliers to rip them off. But before I do, I’d like you to tell me something. Why did you choose your toes and not your fingers? The person usually says, ‘I don’t know. I think they probably hurt the same. But since I had to choose one, I went with the toes.’

I turn to him and warmly applaud him. And I say, Welcome to the real world.”

― Haruki Murakami, Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage

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HOPE FOR THE FLOWERS.

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“Hope for the Flowers is an inspiring allegory about the realization of one’s true destiny as told through the lives of caterpillars Stripe and Yellow, who struggle to “climb to the top” before understanding that they are meant to fly.

I love this book. Quite simple, but beautifully written. The allegorical story gives us the message of how to become somebody while showing how to value life and relationship. 

There are times when we believe that we couldn’t do anything more than what we have in our life, we stick to be sluggish and being hopeless about the situation. This book reminded me again to explore and discover myself beyond what I see and believe.  We have to know our worth. 

Yes, hope is still there. I can’t wait to fly!

Verdict: 10/10

 

LOVE WITHOUT LIMITS

It Doesn’t Take a Perfect Person to Find a Perfect Love.

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A very inspiring story.

For a minute, I was ashamed of myself for complaining about certain things in my life, and here comes Nick, born without arms and legs, never gave up for praying and asking God’s miracle in his life. Truly, who obeys God will receive an abundant blessing.

Love without limits is a humble, moving love story of Nick and his wife Kanae. It described a godly relationship from Courting to Parenting without giving judgement.

This book is worth reading, especially to those contemplating about dating relationships or marriage. To love without limits is difficult in nature, but it is possible with God’s intervention.

Verdict: 10/10


Where She Went

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It’s been three years since the devastating accident . . . three years since Mia walked out of Adam’s life forever.

If you have read the first book “If I Stay” or had watched the movie, then you need to know what happens next after Mia opened her eyes.

Where She Went, is the aftermath of Mia’s recovery and the pain of Adam’s promise. For me, the second book  was much better than the first. The emotions were so intense that you must understand what was really going on between their hearts, why the comfort from the warmth of each other had separated them.

What’s next?
Where she went?
What happened to him?
What awaits them?

If you want to find out, just read.

 

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If you stay, I’ll do whatever you want. I’ll quit the band; go with you to New York. But if you need me to go away, I’ll do that too. .. And that would suck, but I’ll do it. I can lose you like that, if I don’t lose you today. I’ll let you go. If you stay. – Adam’s Promise

Verdict: 9/10

We were liars

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“A beautiful and distinguished family.
A private island.
A brilliant, damaged girl; a passionate, political boy.
A group of four friends—the Liars—whose friendship turns destructive.
A revolution. An accident. A secret.
Lies upon lies.
True love.
The truth.”

I don’t want to lie, I didn’t enjoy this book. It’s not just for me.

Verdict: 6/10

JUST ONE DAY. ONE YEAR. ONE NIGHT

I tried to finished reading the three books (Gayle Forman) because I can’t simply wonder what happens next after reading each of their pages. I like the story of how you travel to different country, meeting different people and making possible things to reality.

First book : JUST ONE DAY

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“Allyson Healey’s life is exactly like her suitcase—packed, planned, ordered. Then on the last day of her three-week post-graduation European tour, she meets Willem. A free-spirited, roving actor, Willem is everything she’s not, and when he invites her to abandon her plans and come to Paris with him, Allyson says yes. This uncharacteristic decision leads to a day of risk and romance, liberation and intimacy: 24 hours that will transform Allyson’s life.”

Just one day is showing us the start of Allyson & Willem’s love story.  It is also the part where Alyson decided to stop agonizing herself for nine months, but instead starting to search William to find all the answers she needed to hear.

“Part of me knows one more day won’t do anything except postpone the heartbreak. But another part of me believes differently. We are born in one day. We die in one day. We can change in one day. And we can fall in love in one day. Anything can happen in just one day.”

Second book : JUST ONE YEAR

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“When he opens his eyes, Willem doesn’t know where in the world he is—Prague or Dubrovnik or back in Amsterdam. All he knows is that he is once again alone, and that he needs to find a girl named Lulu. They shared one magical day in Paris, and something about that day—that girl—makes Willem wonder if they aren’t fated to be together. He travels all over the world, from Mexico to India, hoping to reconnect with her. But as months go by and Lulu remains elusive, Willem starts to question if the hand of fate is as strong as he’d thought.”

The second book ties together. Absolutely, it answers all the questions from Just one day. For me, it was a boring recap on what had happened to Willem over the course of the year that he and Allyson were separated, but of course I just couldn’t leave it there.

“There’s a difference between losing something you knew you had and losing something you discovered you had. One is a disappointment. The other feels like losing a piece of yourself.”

Third book : JUST ONE NIGHT

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 “After spending one life-changing day in Paris with laid-back Dutch actor Willem De Ruiter, sheltered American good girl Allyson “Lulu” discovered her new lover had disappeared without a trace. Just One Day followed Allyson’s quest to reunite with Willem; Just One Year chronicled the pair’s year apart from Willem’s perspective. Now, back together at last, this delectable e-novella reveals the couple’s final chapter.”

Finally I get some damn closure. I enjoyed the journey!

 Verdict: 8/10
“And the kiss feels like something completely new. But it also feels like something deeply known.”
“You win some, you lose some. And sometimes you win and lose at the same time. Life’s a bloody cockup.”

“Stains are even worse when you’re the only one who can see them.

Reflection

I didn’t buy a new book for this month, except the Didache. I used to read it for the past long years and I don’t know why I stopped. I used to reflect and to write my thoughts about my spiritual catastrophe. It was one of my ways to communicate with God, believing that He’s gonna check my journal every day.

So for this year, I’m gonna do it again.

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A Child called “It”

A true story of Dave Pelzer, being one of the most severe abuse cases in California. As we always believed “childhood should be carefree, playing in the sun; not living a nightmare in the darkness of the soul.”  This book tear me up, I can’t imagine something terribly is happening in this world.

“I felt proud of myself. I imagine myself like a character in a comic book, who overcame great odds and survived. Soon my head slumped forward and I fell asleep. In my dream, I flew through the air in vivid colors. I wore a cape of red . . . I was Superman.”

AND THE MOUNTAINS ECHOED

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“Khaled Hosseini, the #1 New York Times–bestselling author of The Kite Runner and A Thousand Splendid Suns, has written a new novel about how we love, how we take care of one another, and how the choices we make resonate through generations.
In this tale revolving around not just parents and children but brothers and sisters, cousins and caretakers, Hosseini explores the many ways in which families nurture, wound, betray, honor, and sacrifice for one another; and how often we are surprised by the actions of those closest to us, at the times that matter most.

Following its characters and the ramifications of their lives and choices and loves around the globe—from Kabul to Paris to San Francisco to the Greek island of Tinos—the story expands gradually outward, becoming more emotionally complex and powerful with each turning page.”

After I read the first 10 pages of this book, I was like hoping to finish it at the earliest, but then I realized, I need to read slowly, understand it and learn from it especially it speaks of life’s hardships and the difficult choices one must make.

WILL GRAYSON

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“Will Grayson meets Will Grayson. One cold night, in a most unlikely corner of Chicago, two strangers are about to cross paths. From that moment on, their world will collide and lives intertwine.
It’s not that far from Evanston to Naperville, but Chicago suburbanites Will Grayson and Will Grayson might as well live on different planets. When fate delivers them both to the same surprising crossroads, the Will Graysons find their lives overlapping and hurtling in new and unexpected directions. With a push from friends new and old – including the massive, and massively fabulous, Tiny Cooper, offensive lineman and musical theater auteur extraordinaire – Will and Will begin building toward respective romantic turns-of-heart and the epic production of history’s most awesome high school musical.”

I WAS HERE

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Suicide. Trending. Dreading. Painful.

You will never know you are suffering depression until the moment you would realize you want to end your life. You might seem fine and people around you will hardly notice unless you wear a sign on your forehead that says “I’m depressed”.

The story of this book leads us to reality of grief and dealing with the aftermath.

ELEANOR & PARK

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I almost feel my first love while reading this book.  I remember the air-out-of-your-lungs experience every time I see him. Though I didn’t end up with him, but it was like a good feeling back then; sad and wonderful.

“JUST THREE WORDS LONG.”

The last three words long remains unsettled in my mind. The actual ending was kind of cliff-hanger, but it makes sense after all, it was bittersweet but very true to reality.

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You’re the kind of person I wanna be with when I want to be alone.”

LANDLINE

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“I love you more than I hate everything else.”            

I have read lots of negative reviews of this book , but it doesn’t mean I don’t have to read it anymore, and it was Goodreads choice 2014 winner enough to keep me going.  I am nearly in chapter 20 and to be honest, I would say I like it.  The story is new to me and I am looking forward every next chapter of it.

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“Georgie McCool knows her marriage is in trouble; it has been in trouble for a long time. She still loves her husband, Neal, and Neal still loves her, deeply — but that almost seems beside the point now.
Maybe that was always beside the point.
Two days before they’re supposed to visit Neal’s family in Omaha for Christmas, Georgie tells Neal that she can’t go. She’s a TV writer, and something’s come up on her show; she has to stay in Los Angeles. She knows that Neal will be upset with her — Neal is always a little upset with Georgie — but she doesn’t expect him to pack up the kids and go home without her.
When her husband and the kids leave for the airport, Georgie wonders if she’s finally done it. If she’s ruined everything.
That night, Georgie discovers a way to communicate with Neal in the past. It’s not time travel, not exactly, but she feels like she’s been given an opportunity to fix her marriage before it starts…

Is that what she’s supposed to do?
Or would Georgie and Neal be better off if their marriage never happened?”

HOW LIFE WORKS

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People who succeed don’t dream about money. They dream about how they will make it and what they will do with it. They feel it in their bones!

MAYBE SOMEDAY

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“Hurts to see you everyday
Cupid shuts his eyes and shot me twice
Smell your perfume on my bed
Thoughts of you invade my head
Truths are written, never said
And if I can’t be yours now
I’ll wait here on this ground
Till you come, till you take me away
Maybe someday
Maybe someday”

“At twenty-two years old, aspiring musician Sydney Blake has a great life: She’s in college, working a steady job, in love with her wonderful boyfriend, Hunter, and rooming with her good friend, Tori. But everything changes when she discovers Hunter cheating on her with Tori—and she is left trying to decide what to do next.

Sydney becomes captivated by her mysterious neighbor, Ridge Lawson. She can’t take her eyes off him or stop listening to the daily guitar playing he does out on his balcony. She can feel the harmony and vibrations in his music. And there’s something about Sydney that Ridge can’t ignore, either: He seems to have finally found his muse. When their inevitable encounter happens, they soon find themselves needing each other in more ways than one…”

ADULTERY

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Adultery. This book is very different from Paulo´s previous work. I thought I would like it, but It turns out to be the opposite. I was hoping for something different, something that made me want to rethink my thoughts & actions about life. Not like many of Coelho’s other books have done for me, adultery never amazes me. In fact, I got bored many times while reading it, but I have to end it, I want to know what was wrong with Linda (the main character) but I have never gotten her. I never know her.

One of the most disappointing books I’ve ever forced myself to finish.