Talk soon, Extroverted Friend

I am overwhelmed by the unexpected openness from your letter. Though we never talked about it for a long time, I can imagine the courage you must have to put to let me know what is really going on inside of you, the things that I have never even pick a glimpse before. I couldn’t agree more that you are good at hiding everything. Sometimes, I confused you of being secretive or introvert.  I thought if I started to be open to you, you would follow my lead, but then I was wrong. My beliefs lead me to sadness.

When we’re still together before, I was really confused and asking myself what was really going on between us. I believed that you should be a man to stand for a relationship, but then, you weren’t able to do it. The truth is,  it doesn’t change me the way I believe in you from the first time we have met because I know you are still a good man, the good person I have known and a good friend to me when I needed you most . I have loved you for that.

I know what you are feeling before, your struggles of wanting to share something with me but left unspoken. At times, I really don’t comprehend what you are trying to tell, but still, I listened because I know that was all you need, someone who won’t judge you.

I firmly believe that there’s nothing wrong with you. You are still a person, that is you and nobody can change it. As long as you know who you are, it makes sense, there’s no problem about that. People can understand and accept you, but first, you must also do it for yourself, then everything will be fine. I want you to know, that I have accepted you of who you are,  it might not enough for you to realize before, but it was the truth.

Old memories are good to be cherished. Whatever you have experienced in your younger years just make it sure it won’t affect your entire life. Make up for your mom, start telling her the lightest things happening to you and you will just notice you’ll become closer to her again. She’ll be happy more than anyone in this world.

This must be tough for you, but please try to reach out to others. You can do it. We will never be friends if you didn’t make known yourself to me, right? if someone will invite you out, go, have fun, never sit in your dark room, and please stop drinking pineapple juice when you are out with the boys, they might think you’re weird. Order a beer, eat peanuts and get drunk till your head hurts. (I’m pretty sure you never tried this one)

I hope you are no longer feeling the blues now. Maybe some days it will come again, but at least you learned to sort it out. If things still difficult for you, please send me a letter, again and again, write everything you need to express. Don’t bother about what will come to my reaction, you know me, I don’t give a damn. Just write and write until the keyboard will surrender.  And please, don’t even think of dying again, I have already two friends died, I don’t want to mourn again.

Please do remember, that you are a good person, you never hurt anyone willfully, but please don’t hurt yourself too. You can still trust me, after all, we’ve been together for how many years as friends, more than friends, we broke up, still friends, went to our separate ways, we patch up and talked again. If you are not worthy and if you are not good enough, do you think we still have a conversation like this?

Smile and think of all the good things in life.

Take care,

Extroverted Friend

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PREVIOUS Yours, Introverted Friend

A GIRL WHO READS

If you find a girl who reads, keeps her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real because, for a while, they always are.

 

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Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.

Or better yet, date a girl who writes.

And never forget to buy her a cup of coffee when she reads.

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Yours, Introverted Friend

This is the first time I decided to write my feelings or what my self-wanted to express most. It’s not new to me to hide all things by myself, my sufferings, emotions, I had the difficulty of expressing them. I don’t know how to construct words, making a good story for me to be understood. I’m just a little of introvert if not, a very introvert person.

I know all my stories, but having trouble dealing with them and to how to express in the easiest way it could be for me.  I tried to get out of my shell, but sometimes things just happened that made me go back from where I have been. I got carried away from this absurd character and I’m afraid not being understood at all.

Sometimes, think I’ve become an alien. I hope this is just a manifestation of me, probably the funniest part of me that you would like.

You know, I’m just a kind of a persistent man, don’t know when and how to give up. If I find some little possibility I just can’t seem to stop until I get there. I think I just need to be told, that’s not all the time, the world will side with me. I also hate being left dangling, floating and not knowing when to land.

Lately, for the past many months, I’m so down.  I know I’m giving myself a very hard time. It’s like punishing myself for things that I don’t know what to do as a reward. I just wanted to quit everything, my work, my life.

I guess I got this difficulty since my childhood were other children used to bully me and called me a brat. Since then I have developed myself not to tell my mother of the pains that I get thru. I always eat the sting by myself, and not letting anyone share it because I am greedy for my own agony. It was easy for me to swear more than I could ever sweat.

When I was assigned to work in a new place, I was very lonely. All I could see are just the four corners of the room. There’s no sky nor other people. I could barely see the sun if I won’t get down on the 23rd floor. It’s like I’ve been imprisoned for 6 months. I know, it was nobody’s mistake, blame on me because I didn’t try to see the world. I was so used to sit in the dark corners of my own world.

You should know, there are only a few people where I can confide with, even though I wanted to. Whenever I find myself trying to start, it feels like I’m going to end my story nearly. The thing is, I just wanted to find myself cause I’m lost track already.  And I am telling you this because you are one of those very few I could trust.

Yours,

Introverted Friend

 

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Next: Reply from an extroverted friend.

 

EMPRESS KI (Kdrama-2013)

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Empress Ki tells the story of Ki Sung Nyang (Ha Ji Won) who rises from nothing to marry Emperor Ta Hwan (Ji Chang Wook) and become Empress of the Yuan Empire.  She also gets involved in a love triangle with the Emperor and King Wang Yu of Goryeo (Joo Jin Mo).

Finally, I was able to say goodbye to this drama. I was struggling to finish the 51 episodes, because of my schedules, so for me, this is quite a victory.  Empress Ki is just like the other sageuk or historical drama, the imperfections were evident, however, you will love them, hate them, cry for them, they will use your emotions to storm away from the reality and you just have to swim against the tide because it engulfs you totally.

Empress Ki will bring you to Joseon period where power was a survival, loyalty was indispensable, revenge resonates hope and love became a sacrifice. Different characters go through many struggles, a bulk of villainous charm driven into more occurrence of intensity. It was very well structured.

The visuals are no joke in this drama. A wide parade array of colors and styles in their costumes will fill your eyes. The plot was epic, one of a kind. It was beautifully filmed with gorgeous cinematography.

I recommend you to watch this drama and don’t be scared off by the long episodes, you will enjoy the bits of it.

Verdict: 10/10

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PRAY FOR MY DREAM

I thought that I could reach them.

The moments that I’d dreamed of. That’s why I walked confidently while holding onto some faith.  I thought that if I didn’t give up and keep going, that if I’d given it my all, I’d see stars before me and that I’d finally accomplish my dream.  I prayed every day as I only ever looked forward and ran and hoped that there would be a light at the end of this dark, dim tunnel.  I was consumed by hope and ran, and ran.

Yes, I wanted to see that bright light. It really felt like it wouldn’t be much longer now and that it was within my reach. But why, why do I still feel like I’m in the same place and that I’m lacking?

In order to run again, I have to endure and get back up. But there are so many parts of reality that are so hard to bear,  it feels like I’m being forced off my feet, onto the ground.

I’m trying my best to bear it because I don’t want to lose and this is a dream that I want to sacrifice everything in order to achieve. So why is it getting harder for me as I try harder? Why isn’t anyone acknowledging my earnest?  Why am I being toyed with? I don’t ask for much, I just want this one thing.

But as more time passes, all I want to do is sit in defeat.  Why should I have to accept the responsibilities that this world has created for me? Why should I have to endure all this pain? The world won’t leave me alone, and that isn’t my fault.

That’s what I’ve said, but all I’ve done was hide and run because I’m at a loss.

Lord Above, I beg you, hear my plea! And I hate that this is the only thing I can do.  

The only thing I can do is tread on thorns with my bare feet but I close my eyes and say, “I pray for my dream.” 

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TTYL

It’s a beautiful thing to experience when someone is genuinely said something which you really needed to hear.

Never forget to thank them for that.

 

 

A SILENT VOICE (J-anime 2016)

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As a wild youth, elementary school student Shouya Ishida sought to beat boredom in the cruelest ways. When the deaf Shouko Nishimiya transfers into his class, Shouya and the rest of his class thoughtlessly bully her for fun. However, when her mother notifies the school, he is singled out and blamed for everything done to her. With Shouko transferring out of the school, Shouya is left at the mercy of his classmates. He is heartlessly ostracized all throughout elementary and middle school, while teachers turn a blind eye.

 

Bullying is an epidemic in our society, both for our children and adult.

This movie portrays the harsh reality that almost everyone is experienced, the truth of how much people wanted to be understood and accepted despite what is lacking on them. It shows the total root of this problem and the miserable effect on it to those who are treated unfairly.

The silent voice gave us the message of second chances to correct what was done wrongly, that there is nothing wrong to admit our faults, to ask forgiveness and move on. We should always be aware of how we are treating other people, to learn to communicate, to listen and encourage self-worth and acceptance.

I know it takes a lot of hard work to be genuine to others, we’ll surely stumble along the way, but I think it wouldn’t be difficult if we steer humanity.

Verdict: 8/10

 

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Back then, if we could have heard each other’s voices, anything would have been so much better.

 

 

 

 

 

 

SHOUT TO HEAVEN

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On the road again, going places that I’ve never been. Seeing things that I may never see again. Go rest high on that mountain, go and shout to heaven, thank you Lord, your work on earth is miraculously done. 

THE CRUCIBLE (K-movie 2011)

This movie is based on real events from the harrowing life story of a special school for the hearing-impaired students in Gwangju Inhwa School, South Korea.

Shocking details has been revealed of their systematic beatings and rapes both girls and boys. It’s honestly impossible to watch this movie without feeling fury and hopeless because those children face an uphill battle for justice.  It shows a brutal reality of cronyism, corruption and merely act of evil.

If you’re going to watch this movie, be ready to hate, to cry and offer prayers to all those who are victims of sexual abuse and injustice.

 

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Verdict: 10/10

DO IT NOW

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The sky may be clear today, but it might be cloudy tomorrow.

Yesterday is no longer yours, so do whatever you can for today.

If you wish to say something kind, say it now, there might not be a tomorrow.

The person you love won’t always be next to you.

If you wish to show an affection, show it now.

Do it now before they disappear.

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MAN TO MAN (K-drama 2017)

5bsajinjaryo5d_maentumaenman_x_man_poseuteo_0I would admit I watched this drama because of Park Hae Jin.  I really like his cold, mysterious, and poker face in all sort of his dramas. Well, in real life, this kind of personality always caught my attention. I find it challenging to deal with them.

Back to the story, this show is all about a ghost agent who is skilled enough to do undercover works in any aspects of his missions.  One of his current tasks is to disguise as a bodyguard to one of the most popular actor Yeo Woon-Gwang (Park Sung-Woong).  Despite his purpose, he was able to experience a warm relationship with him and the rest of the gangs which will become his strength and weakness.

For 16 episodes, you will enjoy the different elements of the story, despite discovering some hiccups along the way, the show could keep you on edge. A parcel of actions, tactics, humor and a no chemistry love affair will surely give you a chunk of interest and admiration.

Verdict: 8/10

 

NAMASTE

To be honest, going to Nepal was not in my bucket list, just like some things that comes unexpectedly. Some people asked, why there? what was there? Well, Nepal is full of old age cultures and traditional religious beliefs that you would envy somehow.

 Kathmandu was hit by an eathquake two years ago, and it was a little bit devastated to see some of the historical places were destroyed, structures made of bricks shattered into pieces and the recourse is still going on. The city was not that extravagant, I was not expecting though, but totally I enjoy the simplicity, humbleness and the smiles from the locals.

Truly, in life we can’t have anything we want, just like in this city, but they vow and say Namaste with spirit. And oh, the traffic here is so horrible and the road is woobly! We called it, Nepal safari road! 🇳🇵🇳🇵