TO MY ONE & ONLY

To my one and only,

I Appreciate you being a sport minded person. From wrestling and boxing as your passing hobbies, then basketball, which we both liked and you enjoyed most.

This time, I allowed you to join the Taekwondo training thinking it would only be a past time for you, but when you asked my permission to join the school tournament as a representative of your level, I never say YES. We argued about it and you are mad at me.

I don’t care if you’d think I never supported you. How can I allow my one and only to get hurt with kicks and punches and who knows what will happen out there? Call me selfish, but I just love you that I couldn’t even bear to think you would be physically hurt. You knew my reasons, and it will never change.

As a Parent, we encourage our kids to do the things they truly enjoyed and promise them to support in any ways we can, but what if we don’t agree in the dreams they have chosen? and they thought we are the one who’s blocking their path to success?

Truly, it is a challenge to guide them while being objective about our own feelings as a Parent.

Talk soon, Extroverted Friend

I am overwhelmed by the unexpected openness from your letter. Though we never talked about it for a long time, I can imagine the courage you must have to put to let me know what is really going on inside of you, the things that I have never even pick a glimpse before. I couldn’t agree more that you are good at hiding everything. Sometimes, I confused you of being secretive or introvert.  I thought if I started to be open to you, you would follow my lead, but then I was wrong. My beliefs lead me to sadness.

When we’re still together before, I was really confused and asking myself what was really going on between us. I believed that you should be a man to stand for a relationship, but then, you weren’t able to do it. The truth is,  it doesn’t change me the way I believe in you from the first time we have met because I know you are still a good man, the good person I have known and a good friend to me when I needed you most . I have loved you for that.

I know what you are feeling before, your struggles of wanting to share something with me but left unspoken. At times, I really don’t comprehend what you are trying to tell, but still, I listened because I know that was all you need, someone who won’t judge you.

I firmly believe that there’s nothing wrong with you. You are still a person, that is you and nobody can change it. As long as you know who you are, it makes sense, there’s no problem about that. People can understand and accept you, but first, you must also do it for yourself, then everything will be fine. I want you to know, that I have accepted you of who you are,  it might not enough for you to realize before, but it was the truth.

Old memories are good to be cherished. Whatever you have experienced in your younger years just make it sure it won’t affect your entire life. Make up for your mom, start telling her the lightest things happening to you and you will just notice you’ll become closer to her again. She’ll be happy more than anyone in this world.

This must be tough for you, but please try to reach out to others. You can do it. We will never be friends if you didn’t make known yourself to me, right? if someone will invite you out, go, have fun, never sit in your dark room, and please stop drinking pineapple juice when you are out with the boys, they might think you’re weird. Order a beer, eat peanuts and get drunk till your head hurts. (I’m pretty sure you never tried this one)

I hope you are no longer feeling the blues now. Maybe some days it will come again, but at least you learned to sort it out. If things still difficult for you, please send me a letter, again and again, write everything you need to express. Don’t bother about what will come to my reaction, you know me, I don’t give a damn. Just write and write until the keyboard will surrender.  And please, don’t even think of dying again, I have already two friends died, I don’t want to mourn again.

Please do remember, that you are a good person, you never hurt anyone willfully, but please don’t hurt yourself too. You can still trust me, after all, we’ve been together for how many years as friends, more than friends, we broke up, still friends, went to our separate ways, we patch up and talked again. If you are not worthy and if you are not good enough, do you think we still have a conversation like this?

Smile and think of all the good things in life.

Take care,

Extroverted Friend

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PREVIOUS Yours, Introverted Friend

SOMEONE FOR YOU

“If you aren’t being treated right by a guy, don’t wait for him to change. Ditch his sorry ASS, he’s a disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect.

Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when you’re at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what they’re doing just to look you in the eyes….and say “i love you” ..and actually mean it. “

 

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A girl who has lots of love to give.

 

D – DISAPPEARED

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For almost every day in five months, I have always seen this old lady carrying her suitcase with plastic bags and some stuff. She constantly stopped by and spread some grains on that wall. First, I didn’t notice what she was up to until I saw around more than twenty of doves hovering towards her and landed to eat the grains. It was a splendid scenery!

I haven’t seen anyone cared so much to do this thing in the morning aside from hastening and bustling to work, that includes myself. I tried to greet her several times or just give her a smile, but it seems she has her own world.

She never looked at me at all. Instead, I found her chattering alone and smiling in the air. I don’t remember she changed her clothes either because she’s always wearing that gray long sleeves and sweatpants, a little dirty.

One day, one week, one month, I didn’t see her any longer. There were no doves anymore. She just disappeared along with my morning little joy.

I wonder what happened to her. I just hope and pray that she is just fine.

 

TO SOMEONE

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Don’t ever fuse your ignorance to thoughtfulness because that what makes you a shallow person.  Being thoughtful means to share and to care without expecting in return.

Don’t misunderstand what true friends are.  They are ones who will tell you who you really are. Expect they will hurt you, disappoint you and will not always please you.  And if you cannot hold on this, there is nothing to be thankful of your friendship; everything about you is just a CRAP.

PROUD MOM

Not long time ago, my son had this cough that made him suffered for a week. He couldn’t sleep well, he couldn’t eat and much more he couldn’t play.  Aside from sleepless nights I had and spent money for his medicine, my heart felt agonize.

So I told him:

beh, give me your cough because i don’t want you to suffer anymore..”

and he replied:

I don’t want mommy, i don’t want you to get sick..I’m fine with my cough..”

That was the sweetest and kindest thing i have ever heard.  And that, I am proud that he is my son.

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FRIENDS

A lot of people go through life with only a few friends. It seems that some have less than that. They have no one on whom they can call in good times or bad. There is no one with whom to bounce ideas around, or to talk about deep and troubling subjects. They have no one to call in times of need or difficulty. They are at the mercy of life, standing alone.

Friendship is a blessing.  Friends will cheer us when we’re sorrowful or depressed. Friends will challenge us to attain our original limits with encouragement when we allow ourselves not to go beyond our reasonable boundaries. Friends will motivate us when we’re ready to give in, and they can provide for us when life falls apart.

Friends are there when all is well, and we want someone with whom to share life’s pleasant and memorable moments.

We often just want them around, to have a good time, to laugh, to act silly, to enjoy some mutually liked activity. In many ways have friends enriched our lives and made us feel loved, accepted, respected and cared . Probably, too many to list, and the list grows daily.

 

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Shiela, myself, Marie & Liezel

MOM You are Great.

One of the hardest journeys of being a mother is not to see your children growing every day. Your absence in their first step, birthdays, special occasions, school children-parents activities, first circumcision and menstruation, graduation and the rest.One of the sacrifices of being a mother is the need to prioritize her children before herself. What makes a mother feel disastrous is when she sees her children unhappy and unsuccessful.

A lot of stuff to describe the importance of our mother in our lives, no matter who they are and what they have done, they deserve to be called the GREATEST MOM!

A celebration for all mothers who are away from their families and to those who are lucky enough to be with them!

Happy mother’s day to all!

 

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