We know life is not that easy but the dark night does break forth into a new day and there, the world is waiting,it’s not the same day, so pretty sure, eventually it gets better.
Three days ago was my 39th birthday. Before I decided to celebrate and be the spotlight of the day, I was pondering little things about what this year is going to bring. I think, the feelings raised from being nostalgic, I just returned from my vacation in the Philippines and I’ve been feeling gloomy for weeks.
When my father asked me when will I settle back in the Philippines, I have nothing to answer. It’s not the first time I have asked, some friends do the same questioning too. Honestly, I really want to stay for good. I have never liked going back and forth carrying the same baggage of longing and sadness. Even for nine years of hello and goodbye, still, the feeling is the same – tragic.
Then I ask myself, when? what are my plans? now that I am not getting any younger, must have laid the things to be done and be prepared. Well, there are so many things to do, plans? I have more on the list, I just don’t know how and when to start. Am I lacking inspiration? Maybe financial incapacity? or am I just scared to take risks and frightened to feel regrets? But no matter how much I think, I still couldn’t fathom.
I believe there is no perfect outcome when it comes to what we should do with our lives because sometimes what we have planned is not will happen, and that frustrates us more. But I know every person has “something” that keeps them on their toes, gives them a high, and keeps them thrilled. We just don’t need to stop looking and making it happen.
For another year that God gave me, I am with gratefulness. I still have something that my heart wants to do, and I will never stop yearning. I know, that when the perfect time comes, everything will be spontaneous with God’s grace.
Happy new life to all of us!
“Be thankful for what you have; you’ll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you don’t have, you will never, ever have enough”
Nothing happens in a week. I don’t mean it literally like there is lacking important events in my life. What I mean is, everything sorts of in total stasis.
There is this getting up early, and the showering, the taste of coffee and going to work. There is also after five, and the train to home, the dinner, the chatting, the bed to sleep and the rising in the next day.
This may sound a little bit repetitive, but I don’t mind at all. Who am I to complain my life when there are so many out there who are lacking what I have? It may look like n ordinary days, but I have learned to enjoy it. I always used to appreciate the normal progress of my life, and that I have concluded, though I am more becoming a dull person, I think it will be okay.
I will try to make the best of my life from what I have because it feels light, and it feels heavenly at times.
Happy Sunday to all!
It’s a beautiful thing to experience when someone is genuinely said something which you really needed to hear.
Never forget to thank them for that.
Appreciate your beauty. You are different. You are beautiful.
On the road again, going places that I’ve never been. Seeing things that I may never see again. Go rest high on that mountain, go and shout to heaven, thank you Lord, your work on earth is miraculously done.
When you’re complaining about your work while sitting in the office or just feeling bored, Just think of those people who worked outside tolerating the heat and dusty surroundings.
Don’t you think you are lucky than them?
Don’t you appreciate what you have right now?
Construct your thoughts and think about it – again.
Happy Mother’s day to all Moms…
Who has never been cherished by their husband
Taken for granted by their kids.
Who has never been on a date on this day.
Those who never received any words of appreciation, flowers or gifts.
Happy Mother’s day to all Moms…
Who are far from their children.
Who lost their daughter or son.
Who suffers from sickness, depression or loneliness.
Those who have never been treated with love.
Happy Mother’s day to all women…
Who has the heart to become a mom.
Who represented more than a mom.
Who are still trying to become a good mom.
And to all of us mother who works is never done.
Since I don’t like to tell you personally what I really think about you today, I am just going to write you a letter in case you can pass this side. I cannot drop these words in front of you because I don’t like to create a wall between us, not this time. I am afraid you might not accept whatever I would say to you. So let me do this just to help the annoyance out of my system.
I hate the way you talk. Your voice sounds like thunder and I hate thunder.
I don’t like the way you interpreted things. You have always seen it in a very wrong direction. You don’t know how to infer it to positivity.
Please stop talking bad about other people. Personally, I don’t know them so I’m not really interested.
Kindly appreciate life. You have your husband and your daughter with you. You’ve got a job, you have a salary to pay your debt, your health is good, you ate more than three times a day and you are still breathing. Your problem is not that great compared to those people who had nothing of everything. So, please be thankful.
I know you are still a good person that is why I cannot tell you all this because I don’t want you to give additional burden and bad feelings. I am honestly listening to your woes and my bits of advice are genuine. But same as you, I have my bad days too. I just need you to shut up for a while, deal your own issues and give me some break.
Such a long weekend, she thought. While everybody is planning where to spend the holiday, she doesn’t have any plans at all. Nothing seems to interest her nowadays, everything is repetitive and boring. At times, her mind was being cranky that she have known the same people as if no one is new, nothing is to be excited about, she feels that she’s been trapped to same traces and faces. This feeling is not new to her, it always comes and goes.
Two days passed, she never received any invitations from her friends. No one bothered also to organize a getaway, well, she was the one who usually does the arrangement and her friends will just go with her plans, so how can she wait? For once, she doesn’t want to take the lead, she just likes to follow the trail.
When she feels her body is throbbing from sleeping, she got up, took a bath and went out. She can’t stand it anymore. She has to be thankful for the free day and good weather. She has to do things even when being alone, enjoy it and never expected anyone to give her delight.
She ended the day with a little gratifying. She was able to go out, wander around and dine alone. Well, eating by herself outside is a challenge to her. While everyone is sharing the food together, it makes her a little bit lonely that she has no one to share, as much as possible, she doesn’t dine alone in the public, takeout is her ultimate comfort zone. But that day, she made it without feeling isolated in the middle of the crowds.
She realized that not all the time you can rely on to anyone. They said friends are always there to cheer you up, but these friends have their own life too. They have their issues to be solved, and days to relish by their own, they have kids and husband to take care of, they have boyfriends to please, they have work to finish, and same with her, they might suffer the same tedium she felt and just waiting for something new to happen. The world is not just revolving around her.
So be strong when this moment comes, because no one can help you, but yourself. There is nothing wrong to be alone sometimes, it is the chance you can date and hang out with our own because there are so much to discover, learn and to love.
Always learn from the curiosity within and around myself.
a couple of metaphors dripping from a broken soul | cocooned by solitude | afraid to love | lover of afrika | daughter of pain | wanderer | seeker | attracted to flowers🌼 | a hippie living in the wrong generation | nehanda's baby girl | occasionally sane | decolonised bohemian | recovering hopeless-romantic | in love with love | i have a medical condition, it's called hurt-phobia | somedays i love with my eyes, my heart is lazy | i prefer something else but they call me liz |
Paano ko sasabihing mahal kita?
Things are as they are, not as they should be!