Count the ways I let you down.

On my fingers and toes but I’m running out.
Clever words can’t help me now.
I grip you tight but you’re slipping out.

And I remember your eyes were so bright.
When I first met you, so in love that night.
And now I’m kissing your tears goodnight.
And I can’t take it, you’re even perfect when you cry.

Beautiful goodbye.
It’s dripping from your eyes.
Your beautiful goodbye.
It’s dripping from your eyes.


I’m never gonna let you close to me.
Even though you mean the most to me.
‘Cause every time I open up, it hurts.

So I’m never gonna get too close to you.
Even when I mean the most to you.
In case you go and leave me in the dirt.

But every time you hurt me, the less that I cry.
And every time you leave me, the quicker these tears dry.
And every time you walk out, the less I love you.
Baby, we don’t stand a chance, it’s sad but it’s true.

We’re way too good at goodbyes.

Beautiful goodbye.

Too good at goodbyes.

It’s dripping from our eyes.

*Lyrics from Maroon 5 and Sam Smith*

Today’s Kira-Kun (J-movie 2017)


Ninon Okamura (Marie Iitoyo) and Yuiji Kira (Taishi Nakagawa) live next door to each other, but they have not talked with each other at school. Ninon Okamura learns from her parents that Yuji only has a year to live. One day, Yuiji Kira tells Ninon Okamura that he doesn’t want to die and he doesn’t to be alone. Ninon Okamura tells him that she will be by his side until he dies.

This drama is not bad and not so very good. Because of its cuteness and pureness, it’s worth watching for. I like the two leads chemistry, their characters are not forceful and the development was spontaneous. I truly enjoyed the visual of our Yuiji Kira, he is so pretty.

Plot-wise, the story is not that original, we have seen several movies that deals on lovers with fatal illnesses. But what makes this movie significant is their relationship that both portray of their loneliness but was able to catch their time, simply supporting and loving each other. I think  this all we need in reality.

This movie is the live-action adaptation of the Japanese manga Kyo no Kira-kun written by Rin Mikimoto. They have said that mangga is better than this movie, obviously, in reading the story would be more detailed and it’ll explore your imagination.

Nonetheless, I give this 8/10.



Two of my favorites friends are going back home to the Philippines for good. It’s quite sad when good people leave, but we have to be happy and wish them luck on their next journey.


May good fortune become your faithful companion during your life and take a good care of you every second of it! Wish you good luck in small businesses and long-term undertakings!

You will be missed and please never come back here again 🙂


“It’s always been nice to have you near and to enjoy your company and your loyalty; it’s important to have the friendship and affection of someone with whom we can share our joys and sorrows, and discuss our problems without fear or reservations.

But, the best part of knowing someone like you is not to feel obliged to do something when we’re together, just like being able to watch TV without saying a word, not feeling bored or wanting to be by yourself; and I miss you when you’re far away, taking care of your life while I take care of mine.

To be a friend is to be able to enjoy the best things the other person has to offer, to recognize their faults, but to know they are bearable. On the other hand, to be a friend is to offer our virtues with all the generosity in the world and to live without masks or faces to hide our faults, habits or differences.

The meaning of friendship, something that surrounds us in such a natural way that we don’t even bother much to understand what it truly means. Maybe I can’t really express that meaning, but it’s good to know that there’s someone supporting us, even if sometimes they don’t fully agree with what we are thinking or doing and they don’t hesitate to show their point of view.

That’s what true friends are like because they know that a different opinion will not change a deep feeling of mutual and sincere trust.”

Cheers to all of us who have this kind of friendship!




It is true that family is extremely important to our lives, but reality shows that some of us are closer to our friends than to our family.  It was easy to confide and share our problems and even secrets to our friends.  You can see also others enjoy their time with their buddies more than with parents and siblings, maybe because family events are often serious or maybe a little boring.

Don’t get me wrong, I love my family, but the truth is, there’s some stuff that I am more comfortable to discuss with my friends.  It happened also that I didn’t get the same reactions from them (they are serious) compared to my friends who will take it lightly and made you laugh.  On the other hand, it is also tested that our family helps us no matter what, even though they are the last person we run to.

I just learned that if I want to be close to my family, I just have to treat them like my friends – be open,  have fun with them, in any case, start to communicate, let them feel “when you’re with them you can be yourself” and of course, always show them that they are more important than anyone else.

Further, let us also treat our friends like family, we should give them our trust, support, and commitment.

For me, nothing is to contend about Family Vs. Friends. They both played significant roles in our lives, and we needed them whether we like it or not.


Do not rush to marry. Take it slow. Take your time.

Marriage is never a race. The fastest seldom wins.

But the one who starts right and perseveres throughout does.

Build friendship first. It will be your strongest foundation later on.

Remember, looks and talents are fleeting and so are material things.

What lasts are character and maturity.

Know your essentials. Don’t compromise these.

Learn to let go of some preferences too. They can be done without.

The delays and mishaps have its reasons. Forgive and forget. Look forward and move on.

Don’t dwell on the past also.

Never blame others and self for your mistakes.

Instead, learn and grow from them.

Just don’t keep on repeating them as that’s foolishness already.

Don’t get ahead with God by the way.

He knows what’s best for you. Just trust in Him.

Get busy working on yourself as you wait.

Improve and be the best person that you can be.

I got married at a ripe old age of 37.

I courted my wife for more than three years.

And we’re blessed with two cute daughters.

I married right. Not too early and not too late.

This sharing is my way of paying it to forward the goodness I receive from the Lord Almighty through my marriage.

Oh yes, marriage is a bliss indeed and a beautiful thing if done right.

Don’t miss this out for you deserve only the best.

I give a toast to the married and soon to be married people reading this.

Francis Francisco-




Sayaka works at an office. She’s not very good at her job or with love. One night, she finds a man, Itsuki, collapsed in front of her home. She takes him inside and they begin to live together. Itsuki teaches Sayaka about cooking wild herbs and collecting wild herbs, but he has a secret.

So what’s his secret? watch it and you’ll find it.

Honestly, I need Itsuki in my life. Seeing him in my kitchen every day, preparing sumptuous food and eat together, it’s quite a comfort to me (though his character is so good to be true). And I think we need more films like this one; simple, gentle and warm.

There is nothing explosive in this movie, it was transparent to make you feel pure good, setting your mood in positive rays without picking on little details. I believe the purpose of this show is to enjoy it properly, away from villains and complications.

I like the two leads characters and portrayals. Itsuki, is an eye candy, gentleman and secretive, and I loved the way he dealt with Sayakawho is relatable, honest and lonely. Though their characters didn’t develop well considering the pace of the story,  still they have created a strong basis of the romance.

Evergreen love is a breeze love story. It will make you eat and fall in love!

Verdict: 9/0


Sometimes, we are the one who causes pain.  And I realized I owe a quite a bit of apology.

I met you at my lowest times.  I wasn’t exactly looking for love in that span of time, but just someone to fool around. I got you as the rebound for my failed relationship. I know I have created a big mess and have had hurt you enormously.

It should be a jarring relationship and because you are so good to suffer my flaws, I have to end it. My conscience begs me to do it because deep inside I know you are not worthy to share of every drop from my lies and insincerity.

I am sorry about the way I handled things to end.  You were too great, but I was so sure of myself that still, I can’t love you back, or anyone else.

I am sorry for ignoring your calls, for hiding myself and for keeping the truth. I am sorry for making you love me and never reciprocated it. I am sorry for giving you heartache you never deserved, for being with me in times of my needs, but left you unsettled. So sorry because I have hurt you cruelly.

Despite all, THANK YOU for writing me today, for hearing my words with an assurance that it wasn’t hard for you to forgive me.  Thank you for letting me those guilts off my chest.

I’m happy now that you got your real love from someone who deserves you better than me. I cheer for your endless happiness.


Last Minute Romance (Web-drama 2017)


Baek-Se (Han Seung-Yeon) lives an ordinary life. She is a big fan of a top star. One day, Baek-Se is diagnosed with a terminal disease and she doesn’t have much time left to live. She decides to have a contract date with Dong-Joon (Lee Seo-Won) who looks just like the top star she likes.

The sweetest two hours of my life. This drama is super cute and emotional. Though it was short, the plot combines everything you needed; fun, happiness, sadness and acceptance, it was wrapped up well. Yet it would really hit your heart, but this drama portrays how life really is. It is heartwarming and heartbreaking.

I like the characters and enjoyed the chemistry between the two leads. I was kinda touched by the friendship that one friend is enough who will be by your side during the hardest times in life. Overall, this drama is entertaining and it ends realistically.

What I don’t like this drama is very short  🙂

Verdict: 9/10


I stop apologizing for having feelings.

I don’ care if you have seen my feelings as a character flaw and a weakness. I don’t mind if you looked down on me for having emotions of sulkiness.  I accepted the blunder that I have given you the opportunity to bruise me, but I am not giving my sorry when I am not okay.

I cannot cover up my vulnerability. I can’t be cruel enough to myself. Those who can’t accept my emotions and have a hard time dealing with me and have no intention to foster both side’s feelings, then let’s put the history down to the dirty sink. And yes, it would be better for all of us.

I don’t need to apologize for what I am.

It’s not my problem when you don’t understand a single thing about my emotions. Maybe you can’t fathom because we are no longer on the same level. While every person is different, a conversation needs to start out rather than an apology, but it never happened. Resentment has been piled up, misunderstanding mixed-up, I have never blamed anyone to my defense, but for my own sentiment.

I cannot apologize for the friendship lost, instead, I want to speak my gratitude.

Thank you for all the shared memories of laughter, for the sadness, and for everything in between. I appreciate all of the things you do, big and small. Thank you for making me doubt myself, wondering what I meant to you all along, whether I was just a convenience for your own time or mine.

Thanks a ton for letting me think far what is the true meaning of friendship and relationship, the essence of when to hold and to let go. Thank you for making me realized there’s nothing wrong to snug the corners of our lives, keeping who’s important and give up who isn’t.

For all of this, thank you for making me embrace my feelings.

I bid mine goodbye for everything. Let’s grow apart and keep moving forward.




Hanging out with you is one of the best choices to break the monotony of life. Something that I can do randomly without being pushed on how to act and talk in front of you, just like being together is spontaneous and effortless. I can imagine the simple, yet a perfect moment of our lingering. Taking time to breathe, to smell the fragrance of our coffee or tea, and the pleasant presence of each other.

There is no perfect time than to hang out with serenity and break my stress. The little luxury of the ordinary day sounds the antidote of all the misery of this world, that is why it is significant for me to hang out with you even so we don’t have anything to talk about, just have to be myself and laugh.

In a moment like this, I don’t need to brag to everyone that I’m having a good time. No burden to show them because this is palpable and soothing. With someone like you, a cozy place to stay on, a perfect cup to sip on, a smile on our faces, everything, yes everything is comforting and I don’t want to end.

Let’s hang out again!


Three days ago was my 39th birthday.  Before I decided to celebrate and be the spotlight of the day, I was pondering little things about what this year is going to bring.  I think, the feelings raised from being nostalgic, I just returned from my vacation in the Philippines and I’ve been feeling gloomy for weeks.

When my father asked me when will I settle back in the Philippines, I have nothing to answer. It’s not the first time I have asked, some friends do the same questioning too. Honestly, I really want to stay for good. I have never liked going back and forth carrying the same baggage of longing and sadness. Even for nine years of hello and goodbye, still, the feeling is the same – tragic.

Then I ask myself, when? what are my plans? now that I am not getting any younger, must have laid the things to be done and be prepared.  Well, there are so many things to do, plans? I have more on the list, I just don’t know how and when to start. Am I lacking inspiration? Maybe financial incapacity? or am I just scared to take risks and frightened to feel regrets? But no matter how much I think, I still couldn’t fathom.

I believe there is no perfect outcome when it comes to what we should do with our lives because sometimes what we have planned is not will happen, and that frustrates us more. But I know every person has “something” that keeps them on their toes, gives them a high, and keeps them thrilled. We just don’t need to stop looking and making it happen.

For another year that God gave me, I am with gratefulness. I still have something that my heart wants to do, and I will never stop yearning. I know, that when the perfect time comes, everything will be spontaneous with God’s grace.

Happy new life to all of us!