I stop apologizing for having feelings.

I don’ care if you have seen my feelings as a character flaw and a weakness. I don’t mind if you looked down on me for having emotions of sulkiness.  I accepted the blunder that I have given you the opportunity to bruise me, but I am not giving my sorry when I am not okay.

I cannot cover up my vulnerability. I can’t be cruel enough to myself. Those who can’t accept my emotions and have a hard time dealing with me and have no intention to foster both side’s feelings, then let’s put the history down to the dirty sink. And yes, it would be better for all of us.

I don’t need to apologize for what I am.

It’s not my problem when you don’t understand a single thing about my emotions. Maybe you can’t fathom because we are no longer on the same level. While every person is different, a conversation needs to start out rather than an apology, but it never happened. Resentment has been piled up, misunderstanding mixed-up, I have never blamed anyone to my defense, but for my own sentiment.

I cannot apologize for the friendship lost, instead, I want to speak my gratitude.

Thank you for all the shared memories of laughter, for the sadness, and for everything in between. I appreciate all of the things you do, big and small. Thank you for making me doubt myself, wondering what I meant to you all along, whether I was just a convenience for your own time or mine.

Thanks a ton for letting me think far what is the true meaning of friendship and relationship, the essence of when to hold and to let go. Thank you for making me realized there’s nothing wrong to snug the corners of our lives, keeping who’s important and give up who isn’t.

For all of this, thank you for making me embrace my feelings.

I bid mine goodbye for everything. Let’s grow apart and keep moving forward.



Welcome to our new home. Just enjoy looking at things indifferently.

And sorry for the inconvenience too.

Have a seat please, I’ll serve you a cold beer!

I’m trying to be flexible
Kids at heart.
Catch me I’m falling!
Want to eat now!
This is how I exercise.
Who wants to clean the bathroom?

I’m strong and full of fun!
I can do this!

This is our comfort zone.
Switch it on, please!

If you ever wondered how it feels to turn your world upside down, well, this new tourist attraction just opened recently in Davao Metro, Philippines.

The Upside Down House Museum is inspired by the famous KL Upside Down House in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia and is considered as the first upside down house-inspired museum in Mindanao.

The designed is smaller and simpler, but still worthy of a visit.  They have also assured that they will change the museum’s concept every 18 to 24 months to keep everyone have something to look forward.

You can visit the museum at Dacudao Avenue, Davao City (fronting the Department of Labor Employment office). Entrance fee is P250.00/5USD for adults and P150.00/3USD for kids.

Have fun!



That’s my mom and my paps.  Today is their 39th wedding anniversary.

I would say that their marriage is not perfect at all. Just like the other couples, they have lived in the joyous moment and painful times.  They don’t claim always that they are madly in love with other, but obviously, they can’t live without each other.

Their opposite character made them weary fitfully, but they have shown that unlimited sense of understanding and accepting each other are really necessary for any relationship.

Marriage with them is no fairytale.  All my life I have witnessed them grow old together and closer with each passing year. They’ve been in a ride of turbulence and how they managed to land safely is such a blessings.

Sometimes, I still heard them complaining about each other, but never lost their sight to what they have promised 39 years ago, for better or worse.

Happy Anniversary to my wonderful Parents. Your togetherness in good and bad times has taught us teamwork. Your tolerance for each other’s habits has taught us patience. Your support during each other’s crises has taught us solidarity. Your lives as our parents have taught us how to live.

Lots of love.




Finally, summer is about to end.  While the Starks from Game of thrones prepared for the winter with warning and vigilance, for us, it is the most anticipated season of the time.

Since the weather in UAE is starting to get cooler especially at night with less humidity, the gang decided to have our first change season outdoor activity away from home.

We headed to Umm Al-Quwain open beach which is perfect for a night-time barbecue, crabbing, swimming and storytelling with friends.


Such a wonderful feeling to just lay on the sand, thinking nothing else for a while. 



Beachside around 8:00 in the morning. No one was able to meet the sunrise.


This little guy woke up before us and enjoying most of his time walking, swimming and playing in the sand.


Happiness is walking on the beach.



If you were stung by a Jellyfish, I’d totally pee on you.


 Relationship goal.


Clear your mind of CAN’T.




Be your own kind of beautiful.



Only dead fish go with the flow.




If you don’t drink how will your friends know you love them at 2:00 am?

You don’t need too many people to be happy just a few real ones who appreciate you for who you are.


“One of the luckiest things that can happen to you in life is,

I think, to have a happy childhood.”

That is me. I had a happy childhood which I always look back to with fond memories.

Even though I was fully aware of our financial struggles at that time, with our parent’s disagreements, siblings arguments and when I couldn’t have the things I wanted, this sort of things never stops me from becoming a normal happy person. Why? because my parents allowed me to fill my childhood memories with excitement, adventure, challenges and a lot of time to play despite their shortcomings and lapses.

I have so many precious memories of my childhood; outdoors in the dark with moonlight seeing, climbing high up the trees, riding bikes in the streets, making wood guns, street games, hide and seek with friends, digging holes at the beach, jumping in the waves, summer spent in the countryside, reading pocket novels, infatuation, and some church activities. In those years, a lot to said about how good life was.

And now getting old makes me yearn for the simplicity of life. I want to feel that every new day is more interesting than the last. I want to turn back time as a child when I have only to believed that nothing was impossible, that small things seem big of importance. When all my fears just fade away, and only the cuts from my knees getting me pain.  I want to remember the joy with which my mother’s touch gave me tranquility or my father’s beautiful kiss on my cheek.

I wish “I could take a single childhood memory and blow it up into a bubble and live inside it forever.”




Ajman is the smallest of the seven emirates of the United Arab Emirates. It’s located on the Arabian Gulf coast of the northern part of the UAE. Approximately 95% of the population of the Emirate resides in the city of Ajman, possibly because it’s away from the hustle and bustle of the larger Emirates like Dubai and Abu Dhabi.

Ajman’s quite scenery
It was 39 °C with 53% humidity.
Ajman is near to the ports of neighboring Emirates. This was taken from the Fish Market.

We booked Ewan Tower Hotel Apartment which was more affordable. What I liked in this 3-star hotel is the huge space in the living room, good enough if you are in a big group and for a party held. I think the room is sound proof too, at least no one was complaining when we are loud. It was a very comfortable place to stay.



And of course, everything will be memorable if you spend the day with good friends.


Since the temperature of that day was super hot, we decided to stay only at the hotel. But in case, if you want to visit Ajman, here are the fun things to do and best places to go.

  1. Ajman Museum
  2. Ajman Dhow Building Yard
  3. Beaches
  4. Mowaihat archaeological site
  5. Hajar Mountain towns of Manama and Masfut
  6. Sheikh Zayed Mosque Ajman
  7. The forts and Castle
  8. Corniche
  9. Ajman City Centre


There are several adventure sports and games in Nepal. Paragliding, Bungy Jumping, Ultra Light flights, Rafting, Zip flyer and etc.  I wanted the Ultra Lights Flights, but it was too expensive for us and the weather was quite unpredictable too.


So, we have decided to do the Zipflyer.

ZipFlyer Adventure


The speed of the Zip comes 100 miles per hour with 2000 ft vertical down. The ride is about 2 minutes. It begins from the hilltop of Sarangkot, the view point of Pokhara valley with the overview of the beautiful Seti River and dense forest from a platform overlooking the Himalaya.


One of those guys stuck in the middle for 10 minutes.



This is my second time, I had my first in the Philippines. Still, I was feeling nervous, but excited.


So here it goes, the real me shouting like crazy.


It was a fun ride.



Bungy Jumping

Location: Hemja, Near Tibetan Camp, Pokhara.
Hight: 80 meters / 50m & 32m Cliff Steel Tower
Price: Rs 3,000/- Nepali Citizen
Price: Rs 6,490/USD 63 – Foreigner Citizen


It wasn’t me there. I still have no guts to do this thrilling activity.



Yes, there is a nightlife in Pokhara.

Where to party? Don’t worry, Pokhara knows many bars and restaurants.  All the locations are easy to find because it’s just near in the lakeside area.


We are told that one of the best bars in town is Busy Bee, so we went there and found it without no trouble.


Busy bee is literally busy. There were so many people at the time when we dine and drink. There are so many foreigners too, you wouldn’t feel out of place. There’s a live band playing good songs, a dance floor, and a good beer.


We truly had a wonderful night.  Thank you Pokhara!

Talk soon, Extroverted Friend

I am overwhelmed by the unexpected openness from your letter. Though we never talked about it for a long time, I can imagine the courage you must have to put to let me know what is really going on inside of you, the things that I have never even pick a glimpse before. I couldn’t agree more that you are good at hiding everything. Sometimes, I confused you of being secretive or introvert.  I thought if I started to be open to you, you would follow my lead, but then I was wrong. My beliefs lead me to sadness.

When we’re still together before, I was really confused and asking myself what was really going on between us. I believed that you should be a man to stand for a relationship, but then, you weren’t able to do it. The truth is,  it doesn’t change me the way I believe in you from the first time we have met because I know you are still a good man, the good person I have known and a good friend to me when I needed you most . I have loved you for that.

I know what you are feeling before, your struggles of wanting to share something with me but left unspoken. At times, I really don’t comprehend what you are trying to tell, but still, I listened because I know that was all you need, someone who won’t judge you.

I firmly believe that there’s nothing wrong with you. You are still a person, that is you and nobody can change it. As long as you know who you are, it makes sense, there’s no problem about that. People can understand and accept you, but first, you must also do it for yourself, then everything will be fine. I want you to know, that I have accepted you of who you are,  it might not enough for you to realize before, but it was the truth.

Old memories are good to be cherished. Whatever you have experienced in your younger years just make it sure it won’t affect your entire life. Make up for your mom, start telling her the lightest things happening to you and you will just notice you’ll become closer to her again. She’ll be happy more than anyone in this world.

This must be tough for you, but please try to reach out to others. You can do it. We will never be friends if you didn’t make known yourself to me, right? if someone will invite you out, go, have fun, never sit in your dark room, and please stop drinking pineapple juice when you are out with the boys, they might think you’re weird. Order a beer, eat peanuts and get drunk till your head hurts. (I’m pretty sure you never tried this one)

I hope you are no longer feeling the blues now. Maybe some days it will come again, but at least you learned to sort it out. If things still difficult for you, please send me a letter, again and again, write everything you need to express. Don’t bother about what will come to my reaction, you know me, I don’t give a damn. Just write and write until the keyboard will surrender.  And please, don’t even think of dying again, I have already two friends died, I don’t want to mourn again.

Please do remember, that you are a good person, you never hurt anyone willfully, but please don’t hurt yourself too. You can still trust me, after all, we’ve been together for how many years as friends, more than friends, we broke up, still friends, went to our separate ways, we patch up and talked again. If you are not worthy and if you are not good enough, do you think we still have a conversation like this?

Smile and think of all the good things in life.

Take care,

Extroverted Friend








PREVIOUS Yours, Introverted Friend


I know one day, you will miss them.

You’re going to miss their deafening loudness and innocence hassles and the peak of their dirty shirts and countless toys.

You will miss them in your room while hanging out, watching you dress and crying out loud.

Soon you will miss them when they grow up and you get the break you want.

You will miss them needing you all the time because they’ll find comforts with friends or other people whom they liked.

You’re going to miss everything because when they own their freedom, you didn’t own their time.

So while still possible, enjoy their childhood and bear the hardship. Never say “hope you will grow up fast” because surely, one day, you will miss them, you will miss your little ones.





Someone proposed to me!

I don’t know why this kid suddenly grab the plastic flowers and kneel down in front of me. I was smiling and said yes, I do. I bet he was watching some TV drama and tend to imitate it. Ha-ha. He was so cute. I told him to kneel down for a while so I can take pictures for our cute memory and he listened.


It’s the first thing I always say at our new employee training seminars. I gaze around the room, pick one person, and have him stand up. And this is what I say: I have some good news for you and some bad news. The bad news first. We’re going to have to rip off either your fingernails or your toenails with pliers. I’m sorry, but it’s already decided. It can’t be changed.

I pull out a huge, scary pair of pliers from my briefcase and show them to everybody. Slowly, making sure everybody gets a good look. And then I say: Here’s the good news. You have the freedom to choose which it’s going to be—your fingernails, or your toenails. So, which will it be? You have ten seconds to make up your mind. If you’re unable to decide, we’ll rip off both your fingernails and your toenails.

I start the count.

At about eight seconds most people say, ‘The toes.’ Okay, I say, toenails it is. I’ll use these pliers to rip them off. But before I do, I’d like you to tell me something. Why did you choose your toes and not your fingers? The person usually says, ‘I don’t know. I think they probably hurt the same. But since I had to choose one, I went with the toes.’

I turn to him and warmly applaud him. And I say, Welcome to the real world.”

― Haruki Murakami, Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage



There was a time when I was left on my own at work for 30 days and I need to do the job of others. Our company was facing a financial constraint at that time and there was no hope to hire someone new.  Unfortunately, I couldn’t able to resign because I was in my six months as newly hired and the possibility of visa problem might occur for the unfinished contract.

During those days was really hard for me. I felt like I have all the misfortune in life. I was expecting to carry all the duties without mistake, wasn’t allowed to get sick and most of the time I need to pretend that it was just all okay to avoid any problems or whatsoever was playing in my mind. The truth is, I hate it. I wished I could turn back the time and find some better atmosphere to work on.

But when you are in the situation where you can’t escape off or just got no balls to take the risk, you have only two options to choose;  to sink or swim.

I chose then to swim because I need to live. In order to live, I must endure. It was a tough job experience, but the lesson was very infectious.

Happy Labor day for all kinds of workers!



They are my childhood friends (except for the kids of course 🙂

I can still remember playing, fighting and being friends with them again. Those happy memories seem like it was just yesterday, but actually, it has been long years to count. To be honest, it was amazing that I have friends in my life for over 30 years, I am quite thankful for that. Though we just meet once in a year (because of my work),  we never missed any chances to be reunited when time is certain for all of us.

As the saying goes; Beautiful memories are like old friends. They may not always be on your mind, but they are forever in your heart.


When I was young

I never have the chance to play with dolls
Because we don’t have a lot of bucks
I played only jump rope and tags
I kicked the cans and laugh out loud.

When I got the job

And have enough cash
I bought these little dolls, one by one
Sometimes I played with them remembering my past
If I could just turn back, how wonderful it would last.

But I never regret what has been done
Even without the dolls, friends had come
There are always good memories to talk about
When we made and played only with the paper doll.

So my little pretty ones
You came late, but I got you now
You filled up my childhood wish
Thank you, I have some fun.