She said “yes” and I was happy.
I met Weng four years ago. I was the one who interviewed and recommended her to be my junior. What I like about her was not from her curriculum vitae, but the way she presented herself to learn and willingness to be a great help. I’m pretty sure that’s more important than a degree.
Anyway, our relationship was more than a senior and junior thing. We became friends outside and allies at work. I have known almost of her secrets and handle them with indulgence, though I was a little bit cautious of my own, but later, I have learned to trust her.
Weng have entered into a complicated love affair. I was there to listen and disagree, but then I found myself comforting her all along. It’s always been my intention to remind her not to waste her young life over unsecured relationship, but love is an uncontrollable beast, who would listen when you are selfish enough of your feelings?
Surely she has gone into a lot of hardship than happiness. She was walking beheaded from gossip, more controversy as I expected and silent eyes out of sympathy she suffered from others. I asked her when it would end, and she replied me after she’ll get tired of everything.
After the rain pours and the storm has beaten, she finally let go. After the flowers withered and died, another one blossomed with sweet scents.
She finally found someone who flutters air and sea just to be with her. Someone who really doesn’t care of what she have done in her past. Someone who can offer her a life of good possibilities.
She’s getting married!
I know she was happy and thrilled for her new life, and so I am.
She gave us message that a true and intimate prayer will lead you to the right way, to the right people and the right decision.
Since I was a kid, I always recited every night a prayer of “angel of God, my guardian dear…” My grandmother said, God surrounds us with a host of angels to protect us and go before us, and someday they will escort us safely to Heaven. The reality of God’s angels gave me huge confidence as I grew up, and I will never ever forgot this one incident that kept me believing until now that angels do exist.
It was nine years ago when I had that accident which I thought was the end of my life. It was like 7:00pm to be exact when I have to meet a friend that night. I hurried up crossing the lane, despite the hustled-busy movements of cars and transportation vehicles. There were no traffic officer or traffic lights to control every movement from that intersection and every driver made their own limits.
Before I cross the street, the taxi stopped and gave way to me to pass. As I walk hurriedly, I saw one motorcycle driving with high-speed towards me, beating others vehicles too. Seeing him coming near me, I know exactly what will happen, he is going to hit me hardly. I gazed at my back if I could walk backward and avoided him, but I wasn’t able to do it. It was a sudden decision to make; to be hit by a motorcycle or a big car. I just closed my eyes and called God for help.
I felt my body stumbled, flew somewhere and landed with a big bang. I just kept my eyes closed and I heard nothing. I was thinking that time, maybe my soul separated from my body.
Then I was back to reality. I heard someone shouting at me frightfully, “Are you alright? Are you alright?” I looked at him and nod. I saw all the vehicles stopped running, and every passerby looked at me with a concern in their eyes. The man helped me stand and I saw he was hurting too, he can barely move his legs and I know he was the one who had hit me.
When we reached the safe place, we both sit. Some people came to us and asked if we were alright. The man asked me to go to the hospital immediately and he will pay all the bills. I said no because honestly, I don’t feel the pain, I was just trembling inside because I was afraid, afraid to die. I asked him to go instead because I can see he cannot walk and his legs were hurting, probably he tried so hard to control his speed not to hurt me that much.
The fact that my body flew and landed, I just got a very slight bruise in that incident. I know my angel covered me and God never left me at that moment. It was a miracle indeed, a miracle for me to live again. I couldn’t say enough words how grateful I am for the protection, but in the night I just kneel down and pray.
I am not a very religious person.
Though when I was young, I used to serve God as a Choir Member, Lector & involved in some spiritual organization, I still couldn’t say I am. Having occupy to worldly endeavors & engaging to different iniquities, well, I have stopped the most significant episode of my youth life, the service of God.
But I hope you don’t get me wrong. I am still a believer. Though I didn’t go to Church every Sabbath day, I still pray every morning & evening. (Now I am justifying myself!)
Here in Dubai, Friday is the Sabbath day, unlike from the other countries. To be honest, I don’t like to go to church on Fridays, there are so many people, long queue at the metro station & taxi stand, and I just couldn’t concentrate at all. Instead, I go on Thursday; a less than one hour holy mass but without a sermon from the Priest.
A friend criticized me of being lazy going on Thursday, we argued about it. I am pretty sure that there is nothing wrong attending mass in any days of the week as much as I am trying to revive my lack of service, as long as I have still called Faith.
Not everyone goes to church are HOLY and not everyone doesn’t go the church is BAD. We should not judge other people, instead, we need to judge ourselves & reflect.
I had high hopes
That You will find me ways.
Did you hear my prayers?
Or just kept ignoring me?
Give me Your mercy
Let me see You today.
“Screw them”. I remember this word I uttered before I left my work for vacation; I even wished to never come back, and guess what? It happened! Well, be careful of what you hope for because it will take place without warning and you might end up shitting yourself.
One of the bosses literally screwed the business by withdrawing the partnership, which resulted in a decision of dissolving the company instantaneously. Employees have been terminated instantly without mercy and some needs to stay for about 1 month to finalize everything, which includes me. It was a bombshell for all of us, though I am expecting this would happen, but not in this early part.
Honestly, it was daunting for me to anticipate what had happened, though I have the feelings that it was the right time to say goodbye. But since I hate shocking surprises, I can’t even imagine myself being jobless without mere preparation. It would be the worst situation we all know that, in any reason, it could have happened to us, especially if our work is our bread & butter.
Fortunately, after 4 days of contemplating the bad news and applying, to another company very quickly, God hears my prayer, our prayer. I was hired directly or was absorbed to work for another company which I believe is more stable & profitable. With my boss’s recommendation & my loyalty to him despite of everything, I have never gone astray. He pays me back to have a job again.
Well, one thing I realized is that, there is a right time for everything. When it happens, it will, no matter how much you try not to. When they decided to close the company, my residence visa is about to expire, our office tenancy agreement will end, and even my boss house rent will about to cease. As if everything falls to END!
This whole thing indicates that there is this word ENOUGH, enough to something that will never work out whether we like it or not.
As for now, everything is almost settled. Everybody is sad, but we just keep moving on. I will have my new chapter and I hardly pray for it to be fruitful, better, stable and happier this time.
Thank you God for an answered prayer.
Thank you All for the prayers & support.
Wish us all luck.
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Just explore whats inside you. And reach the forbidden. stay there for sometime; discover everything as real ; go through your zones ; fight till last breath ; at last when you get yourself home with full imaginative mind ; just sit down on a lonely place and spill it all out on papers . never follow whats other doing ; take the best and try to improve the worst; try to make comparison in you only . when you will succeed the life is yours. dont tell whole feelings write them in words. stick to the real points and ignore unwanted flirts . be straightforward till the ends . speak always truth ; as a result you will never have to bend . be nicer than nice ; be rhyming as flaws. be straightforward from mind and be clear from unwanted thoughts; here i write words experienced in real life ; straightforwardly in a particular line ! i write every type harsh; loving etc just waiting for you to read and if you ever change ; the pleasure is all mine.😇 yours - mystic
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